Officially One Year

It is officially one year. One year since the death of my son. I Lost him on the 4th of October, 2022. I found him. He was in his bed and I went into his room because I could not figure out why he was not getting ready for work. He had a heart attack in his sleep. My whole world changed from that moment on. How I view the world is so different now. I think back on the many conversations he and I had and now I see and understand the things he tried to tell me.

He was a young man who believed in living life to the fullest and having nothing but fun while he was at it. He believed in uplifting others and making people laugh. 

My son was a brother, uncle, cousin, nephew, father, friend, and best friend, but most of all he was a true child of GOD. He was a strong believer in God and there were moments when I am sure his faith waivered but he knew that only through God and His help he could not have made been as successful as he was becoming, To his nephews he was Uncle Jay to me he was Boo or simply just Jay. He was and still is My baby Boy. When he was born the hospital put Baby Boy B and his sister was Babgirl A. She is the eldest of the two. (By 2 minutes) LOL

However, you would think she was the oldest by years she is most definitely the BOSS!

He has three beautiful daughters and they all have a lot of his mannerisms.  Well, they should they are HIS girls and he was most definitely the Ultimate GIRL DAD. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes and causes my heart to hurt. 

After he died in October, I had to face the holidays without him. All I wanted to do was stay in bed with the covers over my head. I didn't want to face the day. I miss hearing his voice, I miss him walking into a room and literally filling the room. He could sometimes be larger than life.