Thinking of You

I've been thinking about you quite a bit lately. Nothing sad just good memories. I smile a little more when I think of you. I remember the conversations we had and to be honest, you were a pretty smart young man. I want you to know I listened and paid attention to you. I have applied some of your logical thinking to how I approach things now. Sometimes when I talk to your sister, some of the things she says reminds me of you. I know she is your twin and you two had this special mind link type of thing, she is still the honest, straight forwar d person I taught you both to be. 

Trying to navigate life without you physically being here has been and remains to be a challenge for me, but you would be proud to know I am navigating this life as you would like me to. I have been staying committed to my art. I am painting and drawing just like I know you would want me to. I sold a few pieces and I am proud of myself for that. I made your eldsest two daughters a couple of custom pieces to wear. You would be so proud of me. I also painted a couple of pieces for Brit and Justice to put in their new home. They moved in this last October and I still have them here at home. I wasnt't feeling well on the day of her house warming party and everytime I tried to get them to them something came up or they had plans. I will get them to them soon though. I also painted a picture of three ballerinas for Lil Mama and I will send it off to her soon. I created and invested money in a web site I have been trying to buid and I don't know what I am doing but I am trying. I want to do this online store and hopefully I will get it all together soon before I have to make another payment.  

I know Ive been a little depressed lately but I'm trying to work through it and I will get through it.

Your dad is not much help but when has he ever been when it comes to my dreams and desires to become successful? Its sad to say but I am okay with that. I am going to keep on keeping on. It is what it is.

Son I truly miss you and I want you to continue to watch over all of us, continue to protect us.

Love you forever and always,

Mom